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In Need of a Win

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Dec. 23rd, 2016 | 11:12 am

I need a win. Seriously. I'm stuck in the job location in the same job role, neither of which I like. I got rejected. My car died, and I had to get another one. I used Uber in the meantime. I've got a pile of medical bills. My autistic brother is having a meltdown. Many of my friends have become distant enough since marriage and children to no longer be considered friends. My arm and chest still haven't fully healed, most likely from the continued stress from working in a coffee shop. My marketing contract ended and is not being renewed due to funding issues. I'm still not over losing my dog. I need a win.

The response to my "asking out" was an interesting one: Look, I can't do that with you. Fascinating. Perhaps, it just means that since I am in a lower position, albeit elsewhere, that a relationship is not an option. Maybe not. Regardless, I'm going to walk away from this and leave this ball in her court. It's rather disappointing. I find it hard to find anyone that is remotely close to a match. I often wonder if the "secret" of me not ever being rejected upon asking prior to this is that I subconsciously watch for signs of acceptance and have only ever asked out "sure things." Maybe it's finally time to push those boundaries.

With that, I'm going to leave this. I have a lot to do before departing for my six-hour trip home. Leave a comment if you wish. Later.

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thia007

S.A.D.?

from: thia007
date: Dec. 25th, 2016 03:19 pm (UTC)
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Could it also be your seasonal affected disorder? I know life can keep kicking you,even when your down. But it can't always be bad. It has to be on an upswing @ some point. :( I'm sorry Avi. *HUG*

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uieuph

Re: S.A.D.?

from: uieuph
date: Dec. 28th, 2016 09:01 pm (UTC)
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I don't think my SAD is helping, but there is definitely a lack of overall accomplishment. I'm ready for an upswing.

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